Sometimes trying to make the right one in life can be so difficult. And I'm finding this out at the moment.
There are many people that I like or like me, but trying to chose between them at the moment is such a hard decision.
I won't name names, because that wouldn't be very fair at all, but there are 2 girls and 4 guys.
The 2 girls are nice enough, one of them is from school and has recently admitted quite a few things to me and we are getting closer. The other girl I find really attractive, and she knows how I feel about her, but I'm not sure she feels the same way. Anyway, we get to spend a week together in the summer so I'll see how things go then.
And then there are these 4 guys.
Guy 1 is from school, and I have told him that I like him, although he didn't say whether he liked me back or not. Although some of the girls reckon that he does. However much I like him though, we are in completely different friendship groups, so the only time we see each other is in lessons.
Guy 2 I know from various music things. He is 4 years older that me, and I agree that he is lovely. I'm pretty sure that he likes me (considering he asked me to flash on webcam), but we never see each other. And however much we like each other, I don't think it would work.
Guy 3 I know from choir. He is a lovely guy, but he has one major drawback, he has a girlfriend, and it has been the same one for at least 3 years. However much he may love this girl though, he thinks it is all right to also ask me to flash on webcam. Of course I refused, and reminded him about the fact that he has a girlfriend. He didn't seem to really care, and then pursued in asking me for cyber sex. I didn't really see what harm this could do so I agreed, but he kept wanting to turn his cam on so I could see what he was doing, and I kept refusing. He also keeps talking about what he would do to me if he was single, but I keep telling him it doesn't look like that is going to happen any time soon.
And finally Guy 4. We met last year when we were on holiday in Ibiza. We didn't really talk much when we both got back home, but we have recently both been talking again because he wanted to tell me how much he liked me, but he couldn't because we were both in relationships at the time. I do quite like this guy, probably not as much as he likes me at the moment, but that can change over time. There is only one thing stopping us from being together. The fact that he lives on the other side of the country about 200 miles away. The only way we would ever see each other would be if his football team came here and he would follow them, or if we met in the middle of the country somewhere. But all we've got at the moment is webcams to talk to each other, which is OK, but never as good as physical contact.
So these are the decisions in my life at the moment. Complicated, I know.
But I need to try and forget about all of this until my exams are over. Which is only next week, then I can go back to trying to figure out what to do.
Ah well, hopefully I will make the right decision.