Saturday 12 June 2010

It's been a while...

So, I haven't done one of these for almost a week now, but I have found out that someone actually reads this! I would just like to say thank you to that person/those people!

My week has been all right, had my physics PH2 exam on Wednesday, which I thought I was going to fail, but I didn't actually find it that bad. There were a few questions that left me a bit baffled, but I did only really look at my notes the day before!

And then yesterday I had my last exam, mechanics! I found nearly all of it quite simple. But there were 2 questions I just couldn't remember how to answer! Ah well, they are all over now!

But last night was amazing!! I got unbelievably drunk, but I don't care! I had an awesome time, and was glad I spent it with my mates!

Monday 7 June 2010

200 miles...

is a long way.

Sometimes the most simple things come between you and the one you want to be with.

And to be honest, I hate it.

He knows who he is and if he reads this, he will know how I feel.

I would just love a cuddle... please.

Saturday 5 June 2010

Choices...

Sometimes trying to make the right one in life can be so difficult. And I'm finding this out at the moment.

There are many people that I like or like me, but trying to chose between them at the moment is such a hard decision.

I won't name names, because that wouldn't be very fair at all, but there are 2 girls and 4 guys.

The 2 girls are nice enough, one of them is from school and has recently admitted quite a few things to me and we are getting closer. The other girl I find really attractive, and she knows how I feel about her, but I'm not sure she feels the same way. Anyway, we get to spend a week together in the summer so I'll see how things go then.


And then there are these 4 guys.

Guy 1 is from school, and I have told him that I like him, although he didn't say whether he liked me back or not. Although some of the girls reckon that he does. However much I like him though, we are in completely different friendship groups, so the only time we see each other is in lessons.

Guy 2 I know from various music things. He is 4 years older that me, and I agree that he is lovely. I'm pretty sure that he likes me (considering he asked me to flash on webcam), but we never see each other. And however much we like each other, I don't think it would work.

Guy 3 I know from choir. He is a lovely guy, but he has one major drawback, he has a girlfriend, and it has been the same one for at least 3 years. However much he may love this girl though, he thinks it is all right to also ask me to flash on webcam. Of course I refused, and reminded him about the fact that he has a girlfriend. He didn't seem to really care, and then pursued in asking me for cyber sex. I didn't really see what harm this could do so I agreed, but he kept wanting to turn his cam on so I could see what he was doing, and I kept refusing. He also keeps talking about what he would do to me if he was single, but I keep telling him it doesn't look like that is going to happen any time soon.

And finally Guy 4. We met last year when we were on holiday in Ibiza. We didn't really talk much when we both got back home, but we have recently both been talking again because he wanted to tell me how much he liked me, but he couldn't because we were both in relationships at the time. I do quite like this guy, probably not as much as he likes me at the moment, but that can change over time. There is only one thing stopping us from being together. The fact that he lives on the other side of the country about 200 miles away. The only way we would ever see each other would be if his football team came here and he would follow them, or if we met in the middle of the country somewhere. But all we've got at the moment is webcams to talk to each other, which is OK, but never as good as physical contact.

So these are the decisions in my life at the moment. Complicated, I know.
But I need to try and forget about all of this until my exams are over. Which is only next week, then I can go back to trying to figure out what to do.
Ah well, hopefully I will make the right decision.

Tuesday 1 June 2010

Because I can't think of anything to actually write...

TEN "ARE YOU"S:

1. Are you single?
Yep

2. Are you happy?
Yep

3. Are you bored?
Very!!

4. Are you real?
Of course! :D

5. Are you Italian?
Nope

6. Are you german?
Nope

7. Are you Asian?
Nope

8. Are you cool?
Yeah!!

9. Are you Irish?
Nope!

10. Are your parents still married?
Yep



____________________________________
FACTS:
1. Hair Color -
Brown

2. Hair Style -
Very long and curly/wavy

3. Eye Color -
green/grey

4. Gender -
female

5. Lefty or Righty -
Righty

6. Summer or Winter –
Summer


__________________________
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TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:
1. Have you ever been in love?
Yep

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not really

3. Why did your last relationship fail?
my fault :(

4. Have you ever been hurt?
yeah

5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
yeah :(

7. Are you friends with your ex?
sorta :)

8. Are you afraid of commitment?
Nope

9. Have you hugged someone within the last week?
yeah :)

10. Do you like anyone?
yep :D


__________________________
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TEN THIS OR THAT:
1. Love or Lust?
Love.

2. Lemonade or Iced Tea?
Lemonade!

3. Cats or Dogs?
dogs :)

4. A few best friends or many regular friends?
few besties!

5. Television or Internet?
ummm... both!

6. Happy or Sad?
HAPPY!! :D

7. Wild night out or romantic night in?
Romantic night in.

8. Pink or Purple?
purple!

9. Day or Night?
day :)

10. IM or Phone?
phone


__________________________
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TEN HAVE YOU EVER'S:
1. Been caught sneaking out?
nope

2. Fell down the stairs?
haha, yeah ><

3. White water rafted?
Nope

4. Finished an entire jaw breaker?
nope

5. Wanted something/someone so bad it hurt?
yes!!

7. Skipped School?
nope! :D

8. Wanted to disappear?
sometimes

9. Been to a concert?
yeah

10. Mailed a letter?
haha... yeah!

__________________________
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NINE PREFERENCES
1. Smile or Eyes?
Eyes

2. Light or Dark Hair?
no preference

3. Hugs or Kisses ?
Both

4. Shorter or Taller?
taller :)

5. Intelligence or Attractiveness?
Intelligence

6. Jock or Nerd?
Nerd

7. Hook-up or relationship?
Relationship

8. Funny and poor OR Rich and serious?
Funny and poor

9. Play the guitar or into sports?
both, coz i do both too :)


__________________________
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NINE LASTS:
1. Last person you called?
my brother

2. Last phone call you received?
Mum

3. Last person you hung out with?
Jammer :)

4. Last people you hugged?
umm.. joe i think

5. Last person you IM'd?
Mark

6. Last thing you ate?
apple :)

7. Last thing you drank?
apple juice

8. Last site you went on?
Facebook

9. Last place you were?
here! :P

__________________________
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RELATIONSHIPS:
1. Are you in a committed relationship?
nope!

2. Do you want to be?
wouldnt mind! :D


__________________________
_________
FRIENDS:
1. Do you secretly hate one of your friends?
nah :)

2. Who knows everything about you?
um, sam or jammer :)


3. Did you lie during this survey?
nope :)

__________________________
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RANDOM:
1. Who was your last 4 texts from?
Jammer

2. Where was your display picture for facebook taken?
on top of Caerphilly mountain :D

3. How old do people think you are?
ive been told i look 25 once, but usually about 18 ish

4. What is your current mood?
cheery :)

5. What's your mom's middle name?
elizabeth :)

6. What color shirt are you wearing?
orange! :D

7. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Yes

8. Where was the last place out of town, that you went to?
cardiff bay :)

9. What are you doing right now?
this! :P

10. Something you do a lot?
sing :)

11. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
no-one as far as i know!

12. When was the last time you cried?
Ummm.. i dunno

13. If you could have one super power what would it be?
hmm... to become invisible :)

14. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes

15. Favorite colors?
orange and purple :)

16. Do you still like kiddy movies?
yeah :D

17. What's your favorite smell?
vanilla or fresh bread :)

18. Describe your life in one word?
interesting :D

19. What are you looking forward to the most?
nash choir course :)

20. Who are you thinking about right now?
hmmm. no-one in particular

21. What should you be doing?
Revising/tidying my room

22. Who was the last person that made you pissed off ?
i dont like to name names

23. Have you ever had a pet fish?
nope!

24. Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Excited

25. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
nope

26. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yeah

27. Do you have a best friend to lean on?
yep :)

28. Who's thinking about you right now?
no idea!

29. How many people of the opposite sex have made you cry?
2, maybe more

30. Do you wanna see somebody right now?
nah, not really

31. In the past week have you felt sad?
alright :)

32.What eye colour is the prettiest?
grey

33.What are you going to do next
watch telly! :D